Little discoveries brought to you by my heavy heart (note: not broken). My friend and I ended up at this courtyard which was formerly the military families village. |
You see, these are the times when I want to book the next flight to Manila and just hop on the plane, never mind my job. There really are things I want to change, but I have no control over them.
Sorry for being too vague, I still do not have the courage to pour what's in the depths of my heart, of what I truly feel. But I'm disappointed at how things are, of late. I'm certain God hears my prayers, and someday He'll light the way.
I know cannot just sulk and wallow in self pity.I remember my Mandarin language teacher telling me that we are not supposed to feel bad about our lives, to pity ourselves. We should take it as an opportunity to improve, to work hard and make ourselves better individuals. These words have since been etched at the back of my hand, kept inside my heart.
I try to let go of all these emotions when I'm at work, and replace all negativity with smile and optimism. I appreciate the presence of friends- conversations over afternoon tea dates. Last Saturday, my friend and I went out for our long-overdue tea date. It was pouring hard so we hailed a cab at the City Hall station, gave the address to the driver and found ourselves at an old courtyard. There seems to be no coffee-tea shop place here, I thought to myself. The driver must have heard my thoughts and told us we have to walk over the courtyard, and we'll see the coffee-shop right across. The location was just too pretty, we learned that it was formerly the military families village. Ah, what discoveries my heavy heart can bring.
I also shared this bowl of fresh mangoes-strawberries-mochies shaved ice last night with a good friend. It did help a bit :)
Lighten up, my heavy heart. |