Frustrations- puzzling but inspiring

Have you ever felt so frustrated that in some circumstances you want to jump off those skyscrapers in Ayala? And to think that you have almost pushed yourself to the limits and yet nothing good (or better) has happened? Those feelings make me weary.

I felt the world was swallowing and gobbling me up while doing my super graded impromptu speech in Engltri. Putting the concepts I have learned in our speaking moments last year, I thought I could do it. Seriously, I do not know why the awareness of being watched and evaluated feels really freaked me out whereas I have done this before and I have delivered a speech in a large auditorium. I stopped for awhile in my speech because I dont know what to say, i ran out of ideas, but deep within, I knew I could say every thought that's in my mind, I even wrote an outline of it but it didnt seem to work. The moment I went back to my seat, perplexity is chewing my brain; thinking I should have said it this way, or I should have said thism, I should have pointed this out. Hay. Oh well, enough with frustrations. I will just hope and pray that I'll do better next time. There's still a lot of next time right?

I sang (together with some Ate's and Kuya's) in the Baccalaureate last Wednesday. I'm so proud of my fellow Lasallians who have made it already to the top, and will be graduating soon. The pool of faces I've seen while singing with the choir made me believe more in myself, in my capabilities; I thought, if they have made it that far, I can also do it... 9 more terms, hopefully!
We're in a tikoy haven last Thursday! The Bonosoc and Ms. Fritzie savored the different flavors of tikoy, enjoying every bite of it though it's really greasy.

Part of celebrating the University Week, there was a concert yesterday at the Central Plaza. The Pep Squad opened the concert followed by Kuya Brix's band. I was not able to watch the entire Ablaze concert because I have to run to the 5:30 mass. After the mass I hurriedly went out and get my stuff at the lspo and return at the chapel to give something to Ms. Lou... Havent talked to her for quite sometime, except that little chit chat last Wednesday. We talked for a while outside the chapel, and gosh I really love the scent she always wear. Actually, the floral scent sticked my hair and after having dinner with Ate Gina and Kuya Jofel, the scent was still there (actually it stayed up to this morning before I had my shower!) love the scent.. really. Hmm I hope I could really get her as my Relstwo teacher next term!

This day, I have really proved the saying "Teaching is not a profession, but a vocation." You really really have to be patient when teaching, especially kids. You're patience will really really be put into test. May be that is why a have a "heart" for all the teachers and professors whom I have met since elementary. They are very dedicated to their work. And that is what I need to have right now.

To end this post, our lives wouldnt really be complete without frustrations that can really be puzzling, but once we'll get over it, they can also inspire us to work more... we need not to worry!

Kong Si Fa Tzai!!!

Happy Chinese New Year... May this year of the dog barks luck, health, and prosperity to all!

A Good Friday the 13th

There are really certain things that can make us happy, without us even knowing it! We sometimes stop for a while, think and smile, and say to ourselves, yes, life couldn't be this good. (Do I sound weird? Hope not. I'm just inspired. Pretty much.)

I can't believe another week is over. Here's a recap of my week! :D

Monday- Engltri lesson had began officially, which means, hello to impromptu speeches. We were called one by one, alphabetically, to answer the question "Who am I?" I took it lightly at first because I was comparing it to Mrs. Cases' "speaking moment". But when Joy was called (her surname is Simpson), my heart started throbbing faster, I became nervous. But then I remembered that I shouldnt feel jittery at all! I have been through 4 or 6 rounds of that during high school. So when I was called, I decided not to talk about what I love or what I hate (which almost everyone had talked about); instead, I talked about my name, and what it's supposed to be (my mom wanted to name me Therese because I was born on the Feast of St. Therese 10-01), instead, I talked about my being Filipino-Chinese, the culture and tradition, and why I hate the term "Intsik". Introso and Litera1 really kills my hand. Too many notes! But that's where all my learning comes from-- trusty notes! And oh, I went home with my left eye killing me. When I arrived home, I removed my contact lenses, turns out, the left lens has a hole near the center.

Tuesday- Gazing at the stars at night calms me up, so when I learned from my Lab teacher, Ms. Jacqueline Teo (we have same name!) that we'll be having several sessions of star gazing, I cant help but get carried away. Galaxy! Stars! Here I come! We had our orientation in our P.E. Swimming class. Ms. Mascardo seems to be kind and understanding. I hope that impression would last until the end of the term. I really want to learn how to swim. AND! When I do, I promise to do it more often, exercise, and lose weight.

Wednesday- I joined the whole Student Lasallian Animators (SLA) a.k.a. LSPO VOlunteers, on their, or should I say, on our first General Assembly of the year. If there's one thing I have learned from LSPO since I started last year, it was the real essence of Volunteerism, giving service which comes from the heart. It was Ate Gina's birthday! We had a little salu-salo at the office, chocolate ice cream, bihon, sandwich, and cellos courtesy of Ate Gina! Friendship is really put into test when it's hindered by time and distance. Yet, when I coincidentally saw my F Monica at Soler St., I believe there's a time to catch up for everything. And I hope we could set a schedule for us to meet!

Thursday- Don't you just get annoyed and irritated when during a class discussion, you hear murmurs, not actually murmurs but guys' huge manly voice, laughing and telling endless tales as if there's no tomorrow?! I hate it. I loathe it. (I'm imagining Malia's irritated face right now *giggles*) So if you ask me what did I do to stop those guys from being too noisy, I just got the attention of Ms. Fritzie (FIlipi1 prof) and told her and the guys... "Maaari ko po bang paki-usapan ang aking mga kamag-aral na panatilihin ang pangkalahatang katahimikan habang ginaganap ang talakayan?" Well, I thought and conceptualized those words for around 3 minutes before hitting it. It worked for the first 15 to 20 minutes, but its effect did not last. Those guys don't seem to care.

Friday- Some believes that Friday the 13th will be a day full of bad luck. Not for me! We had the presentation of our Infommerial in Engltri, Mary's group had the best performance! Genpsyc didnt get boring this time because of the "Brain discussion", I saw the human brain, left side only though. it looked like a jampacked isaw :D!Today is the Feast of St. Jean Baptiste de La Salle. After attending the novena mass, I had lunch with Kuya Joffel, Kuya Dom, DOn, Achie Erine, Ate Gina, Kuya Andy, and Tita Amy at Java Cafe. My plate filled with bake mac nearly fell under the table, siyempre ano pa bang gagawin ni jackie kundi ang tumili. After the lunch we all searched for perfume spray because the smell of Java Cafe stuck to our clothes. Ms. Lou also texted me; she got me a datebook and was asking me to get it frontdesk of her condo. I guess she knows that I'm quite disorganized hehehe. Don accompanied me to Ms. Lou's condo while sharing our fondest childhood memories. Ate Gina also helped us practice the Gospel Songs for Sunday, the mass For The Kids. I met four new friends today, Athalea, Anne, Jo, and Japs! And oh, I found a great sister, Achie Erine :D

Have a great weekend! God be with us all!

New Year. New Hopes. New Goals.

Happy New Year Everyone!

It's a fresh start for all of us! Time to keep up to your resolutions, if you have one. Time to pull out a clean slate; put the past behind, focus on the present, for the future will bring problems of its own.
Last Wednesday, was the start of our third term. I must admit that I'm really really excited to meet my new professors and new classmates as well. I also felt extremely nervous because I still do not know that time if I have someone to be with (whom I know) in all my subjects and scheds. Fortunately, I did have companions!!! God is so good, He never let me be alone.
I met my MWF profs. Ms. Atienza for Englitri, Mr. Galang for Genpsyc, Ms. Go for Introso, and the eye-of-heaven Ms. Sangil for Litera1. Yesterday, I met my TH profs, Ms. Natividad for Inersci, and Ms. Mangonon-Punsalang for Filipi1. Here are my first impressions on them. hmmm... first impressions last, ayt?

Ms. Atienza looks very young, and she's a good dresser too! We were required to ask her one question, after introducing ourselves. The question I asked was that how long has she been teaching in La Salle. That's a boring one, I know. I should have asked her where she got that brown poncho top she was wearing that day. It's pretty cool. In this sched, I'm with Kaymee, Dhi, Mary, Joy, and Arianne!
Mr. Galang looks like a student, a serious one though. According to Kevin Navea, he looks like Jesus Christ... hmmm. I think I'll enjoy his class because he doesn't seem to be boring, for me. I'm with Toni and Kevin (I think I just mentioned him).
Ms. Go is more of a mother-figure. Reminds me of Mrs. Jueves, my THE teaher when I was in first year high school. She's really really nice, like a mom. I hope she'll not give us pamatay quizzes! I'm with my close friend Rachael Trajano, and Niko Batallones.

Ms. Sangil... eye-of-heaven... she's simply a goddess for me... two thumbs up. I'm with Sars, Sudoy, Les, Kizia, Kevin, D, Jason, Dhi, and my friend from CKSC, Kembell Lentejas.
Ms. Natividad is a simple lady. She doesnt seem to have pretenses whatsoever. Rachael told me she gives high grades!!! Wooow, and we even have a field trip either in Taal, or in a beach somewhere in Batangas! Double Wooow! Im with Sars and Jino!

Lastly, Ms. Mangonon-Punsalang (another hyphenated woman who's feminist).. a lady who surely loves to talk. She tells a lot of stories, without even batting an eyelash. Exagge but true. I even want to ask her if she still gives off oxygen because I dont think she's breathing while talking! Strange huh... I'm with the BonoSoc (except for Ale.. huhuhu) plus Kaymee, Dhi, and Joy!
Let us start the new term right, set new goals and work on it. We can always achieve everything and anything as long as we'll put our efforts in it, motivate yourselves, ask for God's guidance, and have faith in Him. For sure that formula will do wonders! Trust me. It worked for me.

Probably, that'll be it. We have started discussions on Genspyc, Introso (reading, chapter 1), and also reading for Litera1.

I hope everyone had a good 3-day start! (I had a great one! Thank God!) Have a great weekend, see you tomorrow blockmates !!! God bless us all...