A leap of faith

A month or two ago, I had this friend who seemed to know how to foretell the future. I guess what he once had said is now coming true, "...There will come a time that your faith will be tested, Jackie..."

I guess that time has came (or will still come in the future). I remember posting in my last entry that I'll be home by Sunday night. But I rescheduled it tomorrow night. Why?

Well I didnt mention here why I'm in Manila (heck, I did, that was the gown and pageant part) but also part of the reason why me and my dad came here was for his check-up. He has this thing in his right leg and on his tummy. I dont know the scientific term, but it basically looks like a huge pimple without the pus, and its red all over. Me and my mom are terrified because it's already weeks and they still haven't healed thoroughly. My dad keeps on assuring us that it'll heal by itself. But the heck, he seems to forget that he's a diabetic and those wouldn't heal in a snap of our two fingers.

So here we are. Last Friday he had his check-up. I asked him how it was, he told me that it was the blood, the blood is dirty-- or something like that. Okay, the doctor prescribed a lot of medications that caused him an arm and a leg, if you know what I mean. Saturday came and he's all quiet. Yeah I know something's bothering him. I went out last night with my aunt (his sister) and it was from her that I have learned why he looked so preoccupied. He worried too much by what his doctor had said. According to the doctor he needs further check-up because one of his kidneys might not be functioning well now (a really possible effect of diabetes). But then my ever-encouraging aunt told her not to worry and to ask for a second opinion from another doctor, on which I'll be accompanying him tomorrow (if he won't refuse my plea, he just refused it last night). He's very silent right now. Me and my brothers ate out, and he just wanted us to buy him something to eat.

Maybe he's upset. Maybe he wants to be alone. Maybe what's keeping him sad is the fact that his something's wrong with his health. Maybe he's worried on our future. Maybe he fears of something... Maybe... Full of maybe's...

If this is really a test of faith, well, in this time, I can't help but cling more to Him... ask Him to heal my Dad and take away his sadness, his worries, his fears, adhere to the fact that whatever happens is His will... and whatever His will is, will make me stronger as a person, and as a daughter. I know that His loving presence, through the company of my friends and people close to my heart, will carry me from the fears that are yet to come.

For now, I'll take the leap of faith.

Hey, dad.... don't be saddened by what you hear from your doctor (you know, they sometimes claim to know everything). We still have my debut to think about, and if that day comes, we will all be happy! Especially now I have thought of a theme! Hehehe... Cheer up! We're here for you!

Feels like heaven

The cheerful sound of birds chirping. The clean and crisp scent of the breeze that fills the room. The rays of the sun that kiss my cheek. The soft and comfy feel of the blanket... The hushes of the leaves blown by the wind... A warm and cozy home... All of these... releases me from the stress and anxiety that college life brings. Soothing and relaxing. Unwinding in your own sanctuary feels a lot like heaven. always reminds me of a beautiful life far from what one has yet to dream. A simple life that has to be well-lived.

So how's everybody??? Hope you're all having a hell lot of fun this summah!!!

Awww. I missed Kim's invitation for her debut. Bet it's not just an artsy-craftsy king of invite, si Kim pa! :D Heard Kim distributed it last Monday.

April 17 was course card day. Thank God. The Good Lord answered my prayers again. After computing all my grades (of course I'd like to thank Kaymee, Toni, and Niko for texting my grades), I was about to hug our saleslady at our store. I made it to the 1st honors Dean's List. Hahay, Ms. Teo, maraming salamat kahit pinasama mo ang loob ko at binigyan mo ako ng 2.5 sa subject na di ko alam kung magagamit ko sa buhay ko (sige nga, maisasabuhay ko ba ang mga pinag-aralan natin sa mga uri ng bato? Pagpumunta ba ako ng beach kailangan ko pang i-identify kung anong bato ung nasa buhangin???) O siya, tama na sa pagtataray. At least, ngayon lubos ko pang minahal ang Diyosa ng Literatura na si Ms. Sangil dahil sa grade na binigay niya! Hail to the eye of heaven! Knowing that all my efforts are worth it, truly feels like heaven.

I thought my whole summer vacation would just be a waste. But to my horror, the beauty pageant coordinator of our town went to our house, and asked me to be one of the two hosts for the Ms. Ballesteros 2006 (our town's name). Since they were eyeing me a year ago pa, I cant put them down na. My prom dress last year doesnt fit me already, so i have to look for a new one. And that's my purpose why I'm back here in Manila. I just bought a dress earlier, it's matte gold and burgundy. Quite simple. Nothing fancy. Too bad the gown I borrowed from Monnette wont fit me also. Yeah I'm fatter now. 100% fatter. [If my cousin, Ahia Jethro, would read this post, he'll be making fun of me and say "Mas maganda ka nga pag malaman ka eh" just to make me feel better] Well, just mere seeing my old pictures during our prom last year tells me that I'm bigger, and fatter now. The tube top of my F's gown is too tight, but the skirt is perfect. I hope it'll fit me next week. I'm dieting now as in todo diet. Good luck Jackie!

We went to Saud Beach, Pagudpud last Good Friday. But my mom did not allow me to swim. Hahay KJ. My dad's Double KJ. He did not go with us. But oh well, that's fine. The place is damn nice! A heaven here on earth. I should have took a dip on the clear blue water.

Speaking of debut, my aunt called me last night. She had the function room of the Robinsons Tower reserved for my 18th birthday. According to my aunt, the function room is beside a pool! It was also the same room where Alyanna had her baptismal party. Sana everything would work out well on my birthday. Sa bagay, it's still months away.

I'll go back to Cagayan on Sunday... Hopefully I'm thinner by then. Wish me luck!

Have a happy summahhhh everyone!!!

summer lovin

After the grueling finals week, it's now time to rest and catch up some sleep! I did not actually rest this whole day because i had an u.b.e. with mary, joy, kaymee and dhi! The whole day was spent walking around glorietta, some shopping, and a lot of eating! Cheesecakes are definitely the best, expecially if you're given the chance to avail a 20% discount!

Yes this is a hell week for all the Lasallians. I just submitted my Litera paper last Monday and I bet all students of Miss Frances Sangil worked really really hard for this. The final exam on Introso was not that bad, ut because our proctor was late, many of us didnt finish the word search part! Genpsyc's exam was nevertheless an average-type of exam. A typical Sir Galang type of exam, I must say. And for our PE, our group (Joanne, Sara, Nica, Jill, Mae, Pat, Kaymee and I) garnered the first place hehehe. Maybe our charming and stunning smiles mad us won hehehe! What made my week bad is my grade in Inersci Lab. Oh well. That's fine, it's only a one-unit course.

I can now see my mom packing all the groceries and clothes we'll be bringing to Cagayan! I'm excited to go home. Sleep in my own room and leave the feeling of nostalgia. I'll be in the homiest home on Friday! A friend of mine lent me several books which I'll be reading for summer. I hope the books are really great for summer read! Yehey! Now I can feel the summer heat!!!

Summer lovin' had me a blast! Summer lovin' happened so fast!

Have a great summer vacation everyone!!!

God bless us all!!!