Frustrations- puzzling but inspiring

Have you ever felt so frustrated that in some circumstances you want to jump off those skyscrapers in Ayala? And to think that you have almost pushed yourself to the limits and yet nothing good (or better) has happened? Those feelings make me weary.

I felt the world was swallowing and gobbling me up while doing my super graded impromptu speech in Engltri. Putting the concepts I have learned in our speaking moments last year, I thought I could do it. Seriously, I do not know why the awareness of being watched and evaluated feels really freaked me out whereas I have done this before and I have delivered a speech in a large auditorium. I stopped for awhile in my speech because I dont know what to say, i ran out of ideas, but deep within, I knew I could say every thought that's in my mind, I even wrote an outline of it but it didnt seem to work. The moment I went back to my seat, perplexity is chewing my brain; thinking I should have said it this way, or I should have said thism, I should have pointed this out. Hay. Oh well, enough with frustrations. I will just hope and pray that I'll do better next time. There's still a lot of next time right?

I sang (together with some Ate's and Kuya's) in the Baccalaureate last Wednesday. I'm so proud of my fellow Lasallians who have made it already to the top, and will be graduating soon. The pool of faces I've seen while singing with the choir made me believe more in myself, in my capabilities; I thought, if they have made it that far, I can also do it... 9 more terms, hopefully!
We're in a tikoy haven last Thursday! The Bonosoc and Ms. Fritzie savored the different flavors of tikoy, enjoying every bite of it though it's really greasy.

Part of celebrating the University Week, there was a concert yesterday at the Central Plaza. The Pep Squad opened the concert followed by Kuya Brix's band. I was not able to watch the entire Ablaze concert because I have to run to the 5:30 mass. After the mass I hurriedly went out and get my stuff at the lspo and return at the chapel to give something to Ms. Lou... Havent talked to her for quite sometime, except that little chit chat last Wednesday. We talked for a while outside the chapel, and gosh I really love the scent she always wear. Actually, the floral scent sticked my hair and after having dinner with Ate Gina and Kuya Jofel, the scent was still there (actually it stayed up to this morning before I had my shower!) love the scent.. really. Hmm I hope I could really get her as my Relstwo teacher next term!

This day, I have really proved the saying "Teaching is not a profession, but a vocation." You really really have to be patient when teaching, especially kids. You're patience will really really be put into test. May be that is why a have a "heart" for all the teachers and professors whom I have met since elementary. They are very dedicated to their work. And that is what I need to have right now.

To end this post, our lives wouldnt really be complete without frustrations that can really be puzzling, but once we'll get over it, they can also inspire us to work more... we need not to worry!

Kong Si Fa Tzai!!!

Happy Chinese New Year... May this year of the dog barks luck, health, and prosperity to all!

1 comment

jeniperr said...

Naku, paano pa kaya ako sa ENGLTRI? Eh takot pa naman ako magspeech sa harap ng maraming tao. :(