it's not yet the end... it's just the beginning

I have never dreamed of this kind of college life, meeting a whole lot of people in all walks of life, spending precious time together through moments of pain, sorrow and happiness.

I have never imagined you people would weave a thread in my heart. In those threads, you have left wonderful stitches.

I may have encountered a lot of difficulties concerning friendship in the past (being misjudged, misunderstood), but you guys proved that life is just a maze. There's no shortcuts, rather, we have to experiences bitter things that we have to survive in the long run.

Yes, you are all blessings from God; that whatever I have gone through in the past, God never left me in those situations. Instead, he gave me an opportunity to meet new sets of friends, new bundles of friendship to nurture and treasure.

You guys made my studying here in De La Salle worthwhile. Yet, it may sound cliche, but "all good things must come to an end." But you're not just "good", you're the bestest best. We may lead different ways this upcoming semester, but Im pretty much assured that wherever we maybe, block LR 19's heart are stringed together, like that of a guitar, whose strings play a breathtaking melody, a melody that will last a lifetime.

I have made a lot of conversation with my blockmates, their thoughts, their words, have left an indelible ink in my mind and in my heart. Let me share some of their thoughts that have struck me, and also some of the unforgettable moments they've shared with me. I would want to put everything I have learned during my 8-months stay in DLSU but the space will not be enough. Here goes...

Kim- Naalala mo noong P.E. natin, nagchikahan tayo once, about our future, where will we be tomorrow, having our own family, and the fear of dying. Tapos sinabi natin na we're not afraid to die kasi lahat naman tayo doon patutungo. Wala lang... natutuwa lang ako knowing na a friend of mine is not afraid of dying. Tsaka Kim, I admire you kasi you're so close to your dad, eh kami ng papa ko minsan lang kami magsama. Whenever nagkwekwento ka about your dad, napapaisip ako parati na sana kasa-kasama ko rin siya parati.

Martin- I did not know that you're a spiritual person until we had that mini talk during the Intphil discussion. And regarding the question you've asked me "DO you believe in angels?" Well, yes I do believe in angels. And I believe that you're a real-life angel sent here by God because you make a lot of people happy with your personality.

Cuyeg- Yung mga diskusyon natin tungkol sa "Anong gusto mong gawin sa buhay?"... natutuwa ako kasi mula nung pinanganak ako, ikaw lang ung kaisa-isang lalaking nakaka-usap ko tungkol sa mga ganong bagay. You have a good heart and a great talent Cuyeg, swerte ung girl na makakahuli sa iyo... And kung *siya* na iyon, I know you'll give her a life similar to a princess.

Lauren- We have had a lot of conversation. I thank you for understanding me and my walang-kwentang problems. Sorry if I have let you hear my sobs and cries over the phone. You may have never shared your problems to me but you know naman na I'm always here for you.

Kaymee- Friends like you bring rainbows in a dull sky... Thank you for trusting me, alam mo na kung ano yun. :) And thank you for helping me out in everything.

Niko- You taught me the value of patience. Alam mo bakit? Kasi there are times when you're really really talkative so I have to be patient enough to focus on what Im doing. My Kumpil buddy! Hehehe.

Jason- Maraming salamat sa mabuti mong pakikitungo sa akin. Patawad kung ganoon na lamang ang pagtrato ko sa iyo. Hindi mo kailangang gumawa ng blog para lang mapansin kita. Sapat na ang malaman kong mayroon palang isang taong itinatangi ako sa iba.

Les- Naku isa ka pa! Heheheh Because of your pagiging madaldal, I learned to keep my mouth shut, talk less, and listen more :) Tsaka alam mo ba na you're one of the reasons why I have learned not to judge a person easily, lalo na kapag hindi mo pa sila kilala. You're a wonderful person Les.

Huey- Maraming salamat dun sa 'talk' natin sa library. Naaalala mo pa ba un? Sana oo.. Noong nag research tayo ng Kaspil, tapos nagkwekwentuhan tayo habang nag-aaral si Lauren. I believe that life's absurdity would not hinder you from achieving your dreams, yes you're facing problems of a 40-year-old man, but that should keep you going... alagaan mo shobe mo ha :)

Jaja- I enjoy every moment I spend with you.. with everything that we've shared, sa mga kinaiinisan, kinalulungkutan, pati sa pagoovernight niyo ni Sara sa bahay... Basta one thing is for sure, I did learn a lot form you girl. You may have lost someone precious to you, but indeed, God has given you more blessings. You too, have been a blessing to me.

Jill- Parang parehas tayo ng kapalaran. Only girl, bunso... Nag-alinlangan pumasok sa dlsu at gustong lumipat sa ust... Basta pag naging kayo na, mag party tayo ha! hehehehe

Ale- I've learned from your smiles that if the world would shatter, a smile will always keep us safe from harm. So if you think that you're world is splitting up right now, flash your ever sweet smile... for life should go on :)

Caresse- You've changed how I feel towards other sexes. You know what I mean. You've made me realize that people like them can prove something to the world and they never deserved "the treatment" others usually have on them.

Sara- Grabe I was not that vain before but hala, when jaja, you, and jill came into my world... wala na... mas natuto pa akong lumandi hahahaha joke lang. You really make me smile whenever you share your thoughts and stories.

Malia- My most memorable moment with you.. naku ang dami eh. Pero hinding hindi ko makakalimutan yung daldalan natin tuwing Artapre class; chinese lessons. May hindi pa tayo nagagawa! ALam mo kung ano yun? Ang pumunta sa Divisoria together at makipagtawaran in Chinese :)

And for those whom I have not mentioned, lahat naman kayo have imparted wonderful experiences and lessons to me, hindi ko nga lang mailagay lahat. Worry not, for you all have a special space in my heart.

This part contains some quotable quotes and learnings from the profs and from the people I have met this second term.

Mr. Marasigan
Sexy-ness defines how you carry yourself and not the shape of your body.

Ms. Alana Hernandez
Hindi tao ang Math kaya di dapat katakutan.
Lahat ng bagay ay mabilis basta't gagamitin ang utak para dumiskarte.

Mr. Delupio
Pagkagraduate sa college, hind na tayo dapat nakasandal sa ating mga magulang. May sarili na tayong buhay.

Mr. Lualhati
* Basta, natutunan kong hindi pala lahat ng mga magagaling sa Philosophy ay atheist *

Ms. Amy
You can always receive Him as long as you allow transformation to happen.

Sister Pinky
You have a eucharistic heart--- a heart of thanksgiving.

Kuya Ric
Why do you always have to be so nice?

Ms. Lou
If someone tells you that you're perfect, he's just giving you a bullsh*t. And of course I wont forget her helping me in receiving for the first time the Penance.

Events that made my Year 2005 one of the best years in my life
I graduated from highschool.
I entered college.
I made the biggest decision I've ever made in my entire life: choosing a course, choosing a university.
I met my block. LR 19.
I met the BonoSoc.
I got into Plaridel but eventually, I resigned.
I volunteered in the LSPO.
I received the Sacrament of Confirmation and Penance.
I had my first Religion class, Ever.
I was given the opportunity to meet wondeful people (a lot of them)!
I lost a cellphone for the first time.
I celebrated my 17th birthday without my parents.
I celebrated my birthday with our less fortunate brothers and sistersm during the NSTP C1.
I won in the Quintin Yuyitung Foundation journalism award.
I had my eyebrows plucked.
I went shopping on my own. (without my mom, mind you)
I wore a tube gown during the prom, at first I hesitated but it looked fine.
I think I write better now.
My eye prescription reached 375.
I learned to commute on my own, lrt lang nga.
I nearly got lost on my way to school because I rode a jeepney for the first time because the lrt broke down.
I learned to put eye shadow (courtesy of caresse I think).
I met Kris Aquino.
I got to read more books.
I had my very first (yes you've read it right!) confession.
I grew closer to God.

random rants

While waiting for a text message from my friend, I decided to give you guys an update on what's going on with my life.

So... where do I start?

Last Monday, which was our PE day, we're supposed to have the written Finals Exam in PE. BUT! Fortunately! We didnt have one because Sir Olarte forgot to gave us the URL link of the article we are to read for the exam.

Tuesday, always a so-so day. No one even bothered to bid Mr. Punzalan and Ms. Escalaña goodbye since we wont have class on thursday we'll not be seeing them anymore. Anyhoo, before dismissing us ,Mr. Lualhati, our intphil prof, said that "Ganyan lang talaga ang buhay, kailangan nating maghiwalay". Senti noh? Well, it hasn't been long ago when he "proclaimed" and "declared" that our block is his favorite section.

Wednesday, nothing much happened. Thursday, I went to the printing press for our yearbook, sana it'll be out early next year, or else!!!

Friday, yesterday, we got our pre-final grades in Instud. I got a sucking 2.5, which means I should take the finals to have a higher grade, say 3 or 3.5 pag swinerte. Our Instud class ended up, as usual, with jokes from Sir Marasigan. Algeb, I have no more chance of getting quatro because of my last quiz (HMP written problems suck!) but that's okay. During our Kaspil, we watched our MTV projects and my jaw almost dropped because I kept on laughing! Super benta lahat! Comm Arts Block Rules!

I volunteered to join the LSPO and am very happy to be a part of the LSPO family. The people are so warm and they really treat you as a "family" member even is you're just a newbie. I've also met new ate's and kuya's who are all makukulit and malambing.

The gang bumped into Sister Pinky few days ago, and she still says the same thing whenever she sees us, "SOLID pa rin ah!" Yes sister we're still Solid! And the other day when I saw her, she asked me how's the gifts of the Holy Spirit, I was too shy to answer so I just smiled at her.

During the homily yesterday, the priest talked about Expectations. Expectations on Christmas Day. Receiving gifts, giving gifts, and a whole lot of other expectations. Kaya if I were you, dont expect gifts from anyone hahahha (remember the old saying "It's better to give than to receive")... just GIVE LOVE ON CHRISTMAS DAY!!!

Speaking about gifts, I'll be receiving my Late birthday gift and Early Chirstmas gift from my Dad on Monday!!! A new phone!!! My dream pink kikay phone, Samsung E530 :)

I'll be leaving on the 16th and spend the Holidays with my family. I guess I'll no longer be updating my blog from that day on. But still, I'll be looking forward on your tags and comments! :)

Happy Holidays... And good luck on our Finals, and sa mga magpreprelims din! :)

*My dear readers, please pray for this special person who's really really close to my heart... She'll be having a risky operation on the 13th..

Thank you and have a blessed weekend!

blessings in disguise

hi! how are yah doin? its been quite sometime since i wrote my last entry.
anyway...


although it has been a toxic week, everyone survived it!Our Instud test was not that bad after all, and our Engltwo paper, yeah it did gave us headaches and migraines but I hope all our hard works will pay off!
And our Kaspil paper, moved to Monday! Will work on it tonight because I have to attend to something later...

I am so so happy this week because I've been experiencing "magical moments" and a lot of my prayers have been answered. He's really Great. Those "magical moments" may just be somewhat like coincidence but I believe that He makes a purpose out of everything.

Wishing you a great weekend! God bless us all!

Few more weeks and the second term will come to an end. It will be sad for the entire block because we'll now be on our own. Time to review our "adjusting" skills.

I guess it'll be a start of a new friendship to new faces. Yeah, that will be fun, but I'm gonna miss my friends, the bonobos, my beloved blockmates. Our endless kwentuhan and nonstop laugh trips will always be in my heart. No matter what, we should always keep in touch with one another.

Hay so much for the kadramahan. This week (up to next week) will be a busy one. Algeb quiz tomorrow, first draft for the Engltwo research paper is due on Tuesday, Defense Paper for Kaspil due on friday (Thank you Mr. Delupio for giving me and Malia the worst topic ever.). I'm trying my best not to cram because im my own philosophy, the more I cram, the worst is the outcome. So my most effective solution to cramming is doing the assigned tasks in advance, and yes, dont forget that SWEET SMILE :)

tranquility

"Damang dama ko na ang simoy ng Pasko. Kay sarap damhin ang malamig na hanging humahaplos sa 'king kutis. 'Pasko nanaman', madalas sabihin ng ilan. Ngunit para sa akin, ang tunay na diwa nito'y ang pagsasama-sama ng mga mag-anak upang ipagdiwang ang kapanangakan ni Hesu Kristo at ang ipinagkaloob ng ating Ama na pagmamahalan at kapayapaan."

I thought I was running late for our NSTP Community Service because I reached DLSU at around 7:15 in the morning, having in mind that the call time is 7 am. Good thing I saw Clarence while I'm on my way to Chowking to take out some food for our host family. She was wondering why I was early, she said that the call time is 8 am and there's no need to bring food because it'll only be a half day. So there I was... confused... so I just went inside the campus.

I went to the PGP chapel to say a little prayer for my Dad because it's his birthday today (Happy Birthday Pa! Distance might hinder us from loving each other... But I believe that our hearts are stringed together, forever... Thank you for all your sacrifice... I love yah!). Then it was still pretty early so I decided to sit in the benches near the ampitheater. It was so cold that the gentle breeze gave me the thought of Christmas is just around the corner! I was thinking a lot of things while sitting alone in that bench... random thoughts that made me realize a lot of things. I felt a sense of tranquility while I was seated there... Oh... Life has never been that good... being at peace even for a short time... and that No matter what, Life, is indeed beautiful!

At aroung 7.45, I went to Mcdo to munch on something. I saw Ms. Bernie Gonzalo and she asked me why there were many students considering it's a saturday. I told her that froshies have NSTP class, and we have to do a community service. Then I saw Kizia and Janna! Good thing I saw them, if not I'll be eating alone.

The jeepney ride to our Brgy. host was so fun. Imagine having a roller coaster ride in a jeep?! When we reached the brgy, we hang out with our host family for an hour and then we went to the brgy hall to present our project. We're going to do some sort of a tutoring class, Im actually excited about this. I'd love to teach lil children Math and English, but not Science. After our presentation, we went back to our jeep. Our facilitator is really nice since she allowed us to go separate ways to have our lunch and then we could go home.

As for the gang, we had our lunch at Chicken Bacolod, across Araneta Center. They planned to watch Harry Potter, I just dont know if they did watch because I went home early. And oh, what a small world we really have! I saw my childhood friends back in Ballesteros!!! We were about to enter Gateway mall when I heard someone calling "Jacq!", I glanced for a while, and there... I saw James Rivera and Ella Gabriel. We'll see each other in Cagayan on December! James and I usually see each other during Simbang Gabi's at our church :)

Oh, I forgot to tell you about yesterday.

It was my dear J-O-Y's birthday!!! Happy birthday J-O-Y!!! After finishing the three mini cakes, we ate late lunch at Wok this Way with the gang. While eating, we were watching wrestling and sharing our childhood memories related to wrestling (I told them that me and my bro had this Hulk Hogan doll, and I comb his blonde hair just like what I do with my Barbie dolls!). After having our scrumptious meals, Kaymee and I went back to school and meet Mary at Animo Canteen.

I asked Kaymee and Mary if they can accompany me to hear the Closing Mass of the Christ Week '05 which will be held at the Ampitheater, 530 pm. Im glad they went with me :) The three of us were chatting about a whole lot of things while doing a boy-hunting job at the ampi. Then, Ms. Gina from the LSPO saw me. I went to her; she asked a favor, for me to be a part of the Offertory and to get 3 more people to join in the offertory.

Mary and I immediately got up and asked the people around. We even went to the SPS bldg to ask the ladies there if they can join the offertory. They refused. When I looked at my right, I saw Ms. Lou and for the first time, I wasnt shy to approach her first... I did thank her again for everything.. She also went to the the mass...

The mass started at 530, sharp. And yes, Mary and I were able to get 3 people for the offertory. Though Mary had to go home, Kaymee stayed with me all throughout the mass.

After the mass, Kaymee and I decided to stay for awhile (because her mom was caught in traffic at alabang) and watch the KKK Concert. Before that, I again saw Ms. Lou on her way home so I approached her and we had a short conversation. I'm so glad I've met her... I really feel at ease and at peace when I talk to her or even thru text... She told me that there was still that "glow" in my face... I hope I can get her as my Relstwo teacher next year.

* Below is my Schedule for the next term

MWF 810-910 Engl3 A55 Atienza
920-1020 Genpsyc A60 Galang
1030-1130 Introso A60 Go
230-330 Litera1 A53 Sangil

T 810-1110 Lbyphyf A53 Teo
TH 1120-1220 Inersci A52 Solis
TH 100-230 Filipi1 A58 Carandang
T 300-500 PE A51 Mascardo

Thanks for dropping by! May God Bless us All!

Blessings of Confirmation

A lot had happened these past few weeks, sorry my dear readers.. i didnt
keep you updated for 12 days (just to be exact) :)

Yesterday was the most special day in my 17 years of existence.I received the gift of the Holy Spirit through the Sacrament of Confirmation.

As what Bishop Tagle said in the homily, "confirmation" is being firm in your faith. It is not just being "confirmed", but also, practicing the Catholic Faith. He also mentioned something about our favorite word "WHATEVER", yes it is a trend, according to him, but it is not a sign of
FIRMNESS. (This is the time I remember our gang, when we used to think or plan on where to go or where to eat, we always say "kahit ano" or "kahit saan" so we sometimes end up eating in different places).

During Bishop Tagle's homily, I remembered Sister Pinky's discussion on The Parable of the Sower. She asked the block if to what path do we belong, I volunteered to answer then and as far as I could remember, I said that I belong to the ground with thorns. Now, being able to reflect on the true meaning of Catholicism and Christianity, I would like to say that I no longer belong to that soil full of thorns... I know I'm on my way to the "good soil"...

Just before the mass, Ale, I and Les picked up the flowers for the offertory at Daily Blossoms. Then we hung out for a while at the conservatory and got dressed. Hey Les, thanks for accompanying me and Ale... Love yah...

And to our gang... Ale and I understand you naman eh :) Kayo pa! Lakas niyo sa amin heheheh...

Kizia, Gino, Clarence and to our other blockates who were there to witness the event (hehehe) thank you so much for celebrating with us... and also to those who sent their "congrats" and "God bless".

I was surprised to see Sister Pinky during the mass! Our PEdance Vietnamese friend was also there (I saw her at the South Gate, it was so nice of her to congratulate me and she said that she prayed for me too). My mom, achie gracey, and Ninang Del (yes i can officially call her ninang!) were also there to witness the kumpil rite. I felt warm tears falling to my cheeks
while I was reading Ninang Del's and my mom's letter for me.

And of course... my thank yous to my ever-inspiration Ms. Lou for what she had given me. I did not expect her to be so so nice.. but she is indeed very very nice (I think I already mentioned her in my previous entry that Ms. Lou Krainz is one of the nicest and most wonderful person Ive met on earth). In return, I promise to devote time in reading and
reflecting to it... And!!!I will do what you told me to do... "Live IT for tomorrow maybe too late..." Thank You Ms. Lou! :) Those pre-kumpil seminars were fruitful because of you and Ms. Amy :)

After the rite, we headed to the banquet held at the Garden. Sister Pinky saw me and Ale, wondering why there were only the three of us who received the Confirmation. Sister also asked us to write a reflection and email it to her... (I will.. promise!)

Before going home (or should I say, before going to the restaurant with my family and my Ninang Del) , I hugged and thanked Sister Pinky (I think I even stepped on Sister Pinky's foot hehehe), Ms. Lou Krainz, and Ms. Amy...

I was about to go when Ate Millicent from the LSPO called me, so i went to their table. She introduced me to my future ka-LSPO :) (Yes you heard it right! I will soon be joining the LSPO and im so excited).. They are so sweet (including Ms. Gina, who I thought was very mataray) that Sir --- (I forgot his name) want me to start next week :) {At eto pa, may gwapo dun sa LSPO hahaha, pati si Ninang Del nagwapuhan! hehehee}

To Niko.... myself... and Ale.... Congratulations sa atin :)

To The Almighty, Thank You for giving me the CALLING... All of these wouldnt be possible without You... I know You helped me awhile ago to make my very first online enrollment successful... You are really my Savior...

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The Sacrament of Confirmation

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~Magninang~
Ninang Del and her one and only Kumpil inaanak

God's Miracles

Here's a short recap... Notice the *highlight of my day yesterday nov. 4 and today*

Nov. 3
Artsche class was cut short because of the number of absentees. We spent our Engl2 Class at the library for our research paper. And guess what, I was able to borrow books for the first time in DLSU Library! Intphil, We're 10 minutes late, but nonetheless we still entered the class. Clarence had a solo report :) job well done clarence *applause

Nov. 4
The BIG day. We're going to visit Ms. FFC. I met up with Winnie at tutuban primeblock mall at around 9:30 am, then we headed at the "sakayan ng jeep" (hmmm kanta un ah). We arrived at Ma'am FFC's place at around 10 in the morning. I was the one who knocked at their gate, with a shaking and thrilly voice, I asked the man if Ma'am was there. Whew... winnie and I were overjoyed!!! We thought that they wouldnt let us in, but aha! We're sooo lucky... We had a 2-hour conversation. We talked about anything and everything... Ma'am would always inject to our conversation the "miracle tea" she's drinking.

Speaking of miracles, it's fantabulous to know how God creates magic... miracles... God answered Ms. FFC's prayer.

Winnie handed over a book entitled "Recovery" to ma'am. To our surprise, ma'am was smiling from ears to ears. Her prayer was answered. It was months ago when she asked God for a sign; if someone will give her a book, it would mean that she'll be having a continuous recovery. With the hair on my arms rising, I said to myself, God really is Great.

To top it all off, I enjoyed the day I spent with Winnie and Ms. FFC. To winnie, thank you for the company.. I wouldnt have gone without you! :) Thanks uber. I will always pray for Ms. FFC's speedy recovery.

Today
I woke up pretty early, around 6 I guess. I am to meet my soon-to-be ninang, Mrs. Adela Cases at CKSC. She'll be attending the parent-sponsor recollection for my Kumpil. I thought I was too early so I sat in the waiting room (I miss doing this, especially after Physics tutor, I'll sit on the waiting room while waiting for my mom). But few seconds later, Mrs. Cases went out at the main gate. We had breakfast together at Jollibee. We talked about Ms. FFC, how faith works its magic and a handful of things..

Together with my mom, We took the LRT and headed to DLSU. Mrs. Cases met her old students inside the campus. And she told me that what she loves the most about being a teacher is seeing her old students again and just reminisce everythng... We then parted ways, my mom and Mrs. Cases at the CBE room, and me at L'Hermitage.

Highlight of the day, which I also consider as God's Miracle: I had my very first confession... oops. the rest is private. (to f, i did shed a tear!)

* Thank you to my mom, ninang del (nyahaha), and to Ms. Krainz.... I'm so so so glad you are all there for me. Especially to Ms. Krainz (hmm I know she'll not be able to read this), many thanks to you... I wouldnt have done "it" without you...

Aleigna Ale... Thank you for the friendship.. ang senti ba hehehhe... I enjoyed our seminars and also our retreat because of you... hahahahha thanks sa bonding moments!

That's all for now... May God bless us all..

Last Song Syndrome LSS
"If there's one more gift, I'd ask of you Lord, it would be peace..."

eye-opener

Im in a blogging mood right now so puhlease bear with me...

My day started quite early since I have to go to the LSPO and meet Ms. Amy for my one on one session with her. I learned a lot of things from her. She said that part of understanding God's life is by reading The Bible; and that is my first assignment; gotta start doing that right now. She also discussed about why people take the Communion and the usual questions people would ask about the Eucharist. Our 'session' lasted for about an hour and a half, but that time was extremely worth it.Now my conscience is bugging me why did I not study in a Catholic School, I might have a better grasp of all these things if I did... oh well, that's my parents decision, nothing to argue about.

Lauren, me and Ale ate at Wendy's before our first class. Surprisingly, we need to say "HELLO" to "MR. E-VAT". The original price of my meal is 95, with Mr. E-vat, it became 104.5. If Mr. E-vat would help the economy, why not continue with it, but if all that money will only go to our corrupt official's pockets, gee, id rather starve!

Anyways, our instud class, was as usual... filled with Sir Marasigan's jokes. It's nice to hear laughter once in a while especially when you're stuck with mind-wracking lessons about World Wars. Marasigan Mantra is stuck on my head up to now!!! Here goes... "Sexy-ness defines (not the shape of your body but) how you carry yourself..."

After which, Ale, I, and Niko headed to our Pre-Kumpil Seminar. It started a lil bit late because our facilitators attended the 11.30 mass. We practiced the actual rite which will take place two weeks from now. We had a good laugh a while ago, Ms. Krainz played the role of the Bishop, and a lot of errors were committed, but that's pretty much okay.. practice lang naman hehehe. Too bad Ale and I did not volunteer to read the liturgy, we're the flower bearers instead. We even thought of volunteering to sing for the responsorial psalm, but we may end up embarrassing ourselves so forget it :)

We'll also have a retreat for the kumpil on Saturday. And my sponsor, Mrs. Cases will attend!!! yihee!!! I told her how good Ms. Krainz is, and that she'll be the one to lead the talk. I also got to talk with Ms. Krainz after the seminar because Im very much worried on how the confession will go. You know, first-timer. She talked about a whole lot of things, which really really opened up my mind. I would just quote what she said (though these arent the exact lines) "In this world, man cannot live alone, that is the reason why God is always up there for us, like the famous quote No man is an Island.." Having that conversation with Ms. Krainz lifted up my spirit... Indeed, she's really a wonderful person...

sorry for this long post!!!
enjoy the rest of the day...
May God bless us all...

need inspiration?

Just want to keep my blog kicking alive!!! :)

We already went to the cemetery yesterday and visit my angkong, lola nena, and lola nena's husband. We also went to rockwell just to "parade" alyanna... she wore a butterfly costume.. she's uber pretty, everyone's staring at her...

Since it's all souls day, i think it's time to ponder once again on the temporariness and permanence of life (as what Ricky Lo said). Here's a poem from Ms. Rio Diaz, he gave a copy to Ricky Lo and it's printed in today's copy of Phil. Star

Safely Home
Anonymous

I am now at home in heaven;
All's so happy, all's so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.

All the pain and grief are over,
Every restless tossing past;
I am now at peace forever,
Safely home in heaven at last.

Did you wonder I so calmly
Trod the Valley of the Shade?
Oh! but Jesus' love illuminated
Every dark and fearful glade.

And He came Himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread;
And with Jesus' arm to lean on,
Could I have one doubt or dread?

Then you must not grieve so sorely,
For I love you dearly still;
Try to look beyond earth's shadows,
Pray to trust our Father's will.

There is work still waiting for you,
So you must not idle stand;
Do your work while life remaineth--
You shall rest in Jesus' land.

It's a wonderful poem that talks about life in the "other world". We must learn how to appreciate life's beauty and thank God for all the blessings He gives us... If ever an obstacle comes across our way, lets think of it as a challenge that He had given us, and He'll help us make it through..

I've finished reading Paulo Coelho's By the River Piedra I sat down and Wept... It's a heartfelt story about the magical powers of God...

I would like to share this quote to everyone who needs inspiration heheehe (an evidence that Im very much inspired to Ms. Krainz, too bad she won't be lecturing this coming Wednesday)

"Every love lies the seed of our growth. The more we love, the closer we come to spiritual experience." -Paulo Coelho

time flies too fast...

i cant believe it's friday again...

it was like hours ago when our team won the volleyball during our p.e., minutes ago when we produced a gooey flubber in our lab. class, seconds ago when I attended Ms. Krainz's lecture which motivated and encouraged me to become a better Christian, and milliseconds ago when I received the results of my Algeb exam and went shopping with my mom...

gee time really flies too fast... in a few weeks, it'll be Christmas! It's my favorite time of the year because I get to attend Simbang Gabi in my hometown, spend time with my family, and prepare our Noche Buena...

enough with my "Christmas" excitement...

back to reality...

tomorrow I'll be in school again for our Make Up class in Intstudi. Mr. Marasigan assigned us to read 3 chapters yesterday, but then he only discussed half of a chapter a while ago.. hmp! anyways...sayang I wasnt able to go with the "gang" a while ago. they watched a flick at g4...

take care guys... enjoy our "mini" sembreak :)

pre-confirmation jitters

Everyone knows that I came from a non-sectarian high school, no religion classes whatsoever; which means I have not yet received the Sacrament of Confirmation, Confession, and Communion.. hmmm 3 C's.

I've been attending pre-confirmation seminars this past u-breaks in preparation for our COnfirmation Rite on November. And I must say, I'm enjoying every minute of it. I'm learning a lot of things from our lecturer, Ms. Lou Krainz.(she's supposedly our block's relsone teacher last term) . She's intimidating at first since she speaks English very well but when she lectures, you'll be amazed. You really have to listen to every word that she say because you're really dead when she stops in front of you and asks a question! (right niko?) I just added Ms. Krainz in my "idol" list :)

Last week after the seminar, I approached Ms. Krainz and told her my dilemma that I havent received the sacrament of Confession and Communion... She told me that she'll help me out and she'll give me lecture notes (she's one of the nicest person I've met on earth).. A while ago, after the seminar, Ms. Aimee, our facilitator, checked the information we have given to her during the first session. She asked me, and another confirmant to stay. I felt nervous because I know she would talk to me about the communion and confession matters. So I just shrugged my shoulders off. Ms. Krainz, who was then seated at my back, tapped my shoulder and told me that it'll be fine and I dont have to be nervous...

whew.. i hope it'll be just fine... I'm actually excited to be confirmed :)

i just blogged before doing our Intphil Report... Yey another boring topic in this boring subject...

star struck

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hay... howi wish i could be like her... someday...

In search-- saliksik recollection

One thing I can say, despite what had happened yesterday, I enjoyed our Saliksik. I have learned a lot from our moderator, Ms. Jeane. The game served as an outlet for the block to blurt what they felt. But this I wanna tell everyone, this is the best section I've ever had in my entire life. I swear. I have the best blockmates. Though we have differences, I know we'll be able to work it out. We just have to keep in mind that we cannot please anybody... we cannot make everyone love us, but we can love ourselves the way nobody else can-- a lesson I've learned from high school.

-cant think of a title-

I have never been to a VTR. And I dont like the idea either. But since my dear niece is the one who'll be go-seeing, it's fine with me.

A lot of kids lined up and waited for their turn. When it was alyanna's turn, I swear I was so excited. I even went inside the VTR room with achie jen (alyanna's mom) just to witness the whole thing.

They have a video cam connected to a TV so that the talent manager would see how the child projects. But Alyanna is too wise, she knows that the she can see herself on the TV, kaya ayun nagfocus sa TV. But she was able to smile naman and her projection was so cute. I think the commercial is for a fastfood advertisement. I hope she could get in kasi hindi naman sa panlalait, si alyanna pinakamaganda dun! hmp! proud ninang!

After the VTR, we sent alyanna to her school, sa ETON (international school sa robinson's manila) . Shw woke up early yesterday kasi excited daw siya mag school. Inside the classroom, she's really participating. And when I my cousin and I left her at the classroom, she did not cry. I find that school good kasi the teachers are really patient to the children, and may play room pa sila, puro toys, slides, swing. Alyanna dont want to go home, she just stayed at the play room after her class...

I bought myself a birthday present; the two books that I'm really dying to read... Mitch Albom's FIVE PEOPLE YOU MEET IN HEAVEN; and Paulo Coelho's BY THE RIVER PIEDRA I SAT DOWN AND WEPT.

Later that day we went to greenhills and then had our dinner at My Angels Kitchen along Connecticut St.  with my auntie brim and auntie baby. The food was greattttt!!

Last thursday, I dreamt of my favorite teacher Ms. COntreras. Nagkita raw kami sa mall and I cant help but look at her, noong lumapit siya, sabi ko "ma'am gumaganda po kayo and bumabata.." tapos nag smile siya and nakipagkwentuhan. Later did I know na si Ms. Tampus din napanaginipan si Ma'am. Nagbalik daw sa sa CKSC and nagtuturo. I hope both of our dreams implies that Ms. Contreras is really doing well. I miss her so much.. the way she teaches... she's simply the best!

overwhelmed.

I thought the surprise was over...

Oo, umulan ng regalo ang langit.

Nagbilang anghel ka...

Mr. Makata, Thank you for your surprise/s. I just can't put my thoughts into words. I'm speechless.

Though my parents aren't here to celebrate my birthday with me, my beloved friends and relatives (aunts and cousins) made my birthday complete. Thank you for making me the happiest girl in the universe!!!

Monica and Monnette, thank you for that short, but precious time you've spent with me yesterday. Our meeting was so meaningful to me.

You guys have a special spot here in my heart.

Thank you for making my 17th birthday the best I ever had.

Pagkamangha

Sa mahigit kumulang limang buwang pagsasama
Bakit ngyaon ko lang IYON nadama?

Salamat at iba ka sa mga lalaking nakilala
Itinuturi mo akong espesyal ngang talaga

Ito lang ang aking mailalathala:
Oo, Lubos ka ring mahalaga
Dahil sa ikalabimpitong taon kong naigitla
Ngayon lang ako nakakilala
Isang lalaking "kakaiba" sa lahat ng "iba"
Hayaan nating ang panahon nawa
Ang gumawa ng kanyang naturang mahika
Para sa ating dal'wa...

surprise surprise, in advance!

i can't help but smile, really.

i promised my friends that I'll treat them to a food trip today but I cancelled it because my cousin, achie gracey, invited me to his son's birthday party. i havent seen her son, yro for a long time.

when i went to school this morning, everything seems so normal; nothing unusual; nothing extraordinary. everything went well actually, from my first class artsche, down to the last one, which is intphil.

i went home immediately after class since achie gracey is already waiting for me. she said that we'll go out at around 5:30 since she's still waiting for somebody to arrive. alright then, i said.

my cousin decided to take a shower while waiting for that someone. 5:30 came and my cousin looked slightly uneasy; smiling at me as if there's something funny.

then i heard a noise downstairs, it's actually giggles and laughter... of lauren. i didnt mind, and just continued watching the television.

then i heard the doorbell rang. yes. all of my friends (kim cuyeg tracy jaja sara kaymee caresse ale COR! lauren--- oops! jillie gave a video message! nico brando, kizia, martin also wrote a messege) went to our house to give me a surprise. when my cousin saw them, she immediately hid in our room. my friends we're singing the birthday song (in chinese also courtesy of caresse). they gave me a cake, PICTURES!!! and the big HELLO KITTY BANNER with all their messages written there!!! since there's no candle included in the cake, i decided to use the 6 different colored candles (i think monica gave me this one last xmas). i made a wish and we all blew the candles... then we ate the chocolate cake with caramel in the middle... so yummy... now everything's extraordinary, every moment at school awhile ago is flashing back, making me figure out how did they plan the whole thing.

i just arrived home from my nephew's birthday (yro-- he's the cutest little boy in the whole wide world) and just finished reading the messages in that big hello kitty banner. GUYS!!! thank you for the surprise... i really dont know how you talked to my cousin! ang galing galing! kinakunchaba pa talaga! this is my most special birthday ever... (umiiyak na koh)... i love you all...

*p.s. sa tuesday talaga, promise...

pinay big sister!

It's nice to know that there are those people who are very much concerned about me not having any companion in our house (except for our kasambahay, and my ahia who most often than not, arrive at the wee hours of the morning).

Yesterday, Jaja and Sara had an overnight stay in my house. We had a great time, super great time. Some sort of oa PINOY BIG SISTER hehehe LAu, if you're reading this, hahaha yan kasi ayaw mong sumama! :)

When we arrived at my house, we sat in our couch for a while and then we went down for our so called "food trip". We ate fishballs and chickenballs (near SSHS), and then drank this very unique but very delicious gulaman. I would have wanted them to taste the siomai and other dimsum but my companions are dieting! hahaha... Then we watched TV, took shower, and ate dinner! After which Lau called! We kept on passing the phone because we were replying to our text messages that time. After the almost 30-minute conversation, heads down, We studied kaspil in my room together. I'm already very sleepy but the 2 girls are still hyper that they even watched A Walk To Remember.. I can still hear them giggling and laughing while I'm already asleep... When we woke up this morning, we had our pedicure and manicure at the parlor then ate sinigang na baboy for lunch.

So that was it...
I'm home alone again... (with my ate sheryl)

4 Days to GO!

Last Saturday, i felt so bad when i learned that our no-class-day on CWTS is moved to Oct.8 and not on Oct.1. which means my supposed to be lakad on my birthday with the F's will be cancelled. In addition to that, I felt worst when I learned that we'll be going to a community that day to interact with the less fortunates. But hey, I shouldn't feel bad after all. It'll be a nice first-time-experience to celebrate my birthday with them; at the same time it'll be a reality check 101 for me. There are times when I feel dissatisfied with what I have yet there are those people who needed those things badly more than I do.

Ika nga ni makatang Jason Lopez, magiging espesyal pa rin ang kaarawan ko tsaka uulan daw ng regalo ang langit...

Nonetheless, I really hope that a day before my birthday, I'll meet up with pa-f's monica and monnette... miss them so much, I havent seen them for the longest time ever. Fonnette if your reading this, text me kung pwede ka sa sept. 30 ha.. Monica cancelled all her appointments after class para magsama-sama tayo :) miss you... mwah!

by the way highway, i'll have a new layout soon! watch out for it! it's ONE of my birthday gifts to my self.

college collage!

Things are again back to normal. Endless reading of photocopied papers from cover to cover, researching certain topics, eating and chatting in between classes etcetera etcetera. Nonetheless, college still doesnt suck. It somehow gives you a sense of fulfillment (well, in a way); like being able to read an inch-thick of assigned papers.

But you know, what makes college extra special is that along the way, you meet people in all walks of life. You get to interact with them and at the end of the day, you just realize that you've helped them out in simple ways you dont even know. I'm also very happy that I have my friends who constantly cheer me up, especially when I feel awfully sick. I didnt get to play volleyball last Monday because I was not feeling well.

My friends (jill jaja sara lau ale malia) and I went to Megamall yesterday out of the blue!!! It was an adventure for me :)

Hay. I will be left alone in our house starting tomorrow up to october 3rd. My mom will be going to cagayan with my dihya. So I'll be alone here with our kasambahay and my eldest brother, whom I often see. Too bad my mom will not be here on my birthday (hmmm 1 week and 3 days to gO!!!), but as my aunt told me, it'll be fine for my mom to be a way for awhile since she's always tired when she's here. My aunt and my cousins and my friends will be there on my birthday, so I guess there's nothing to worry about. And of course, my dad needs a companion there in our house. So I'll just blurt out everything here in my blog.

Sorry I've ran out of juicy ideas to write on... My brain just broke... It got tired of reading transcriptions and writing news write ups for Plaridel. yaks yaks yaks.

dreaded premonition

Yesterday, while on my way home, i passed by an old house. It's like one of the houses in our province--the typical old house, with those sliding huge windows. There I saw a beaming chandelier. All of a sudden , I thought, it was like the lights which can usually be seen in a funeraria-- the lights beside the coffin. I raised my neck to check if there's a wake going on; but there was none. I then imagined that house, same as my auntie herminia's (my mom's older sister), with a wake going on.

When I arrived home, my mom had a sort-of similar situation. A black butterfly was constantly following her, flying around her waist. Our maid was with my mom that time; she told my mom that the butterfly was like a bad omen. She also had in mind that someone's going to die.

Dinner came and everyone's silent. Until we received a call from my cousin Ernest John (my auntie herminia's son). Uncle Poka (his dad) had just passed away. Indeed, those mentioned above were dreaded premonitions.

It has been more than a month since my uncle was diagnosed with cancer. My aunt, who's a very patient and giving woman, took care of my uncle's needs. She would wake up in the middle of the night to check if my uncle's doing fine. One time, my uncle fell on the bed, it was my aunt who brought her up. My aunt is on her 60's, my uncle on my 70's (77 to be exact). They have four children, my achie bola, achie pei san, achie jane, achie grace, and ernest. My mom made it a point that my cousins and us would be close and bonded, regardless of our age; and yes, we're very close.

My aunt and uncle are one heck of a couple. Their marriage lasted for years; really... until death made them part.

Two of my aunts now are now widowed; first my Auntie Brim (with my Uncle Johnny) and now my Auntie Herminia (with my Uncle Poka).

I now ask for your prayers... for the repose of my beloved uncle's soul... He's now in a better place...far from harm... far from struggles...


happy birthday to my idol

ms. patricia evangelista, happy happy birthday!!!

here's the letter i wrote for ms. patricia (i sent this to her through email, i hope she'll receive it)

hi ms. patricia evangelista!

happy happy happy happy birthday!!!

i'm jacqueline uy, a freshman at DLSU-main, taking up AB Communication Arts. I'm an avid reader of your weekly column "Crazed".

Ms. Pat (if you allow me to call you with that) you just dont know how much you have inspired me. I am one of those Filipinos who held their chins up high when you won in the International Public Speaking Contest. From that day on, I have started looking up to you, as a teenage "icon". As a matter of fact Ms. Pat, I used your piece during your competition in our class' individual declamation/oratorical when I was in 4th yr High School (my teacher was happy with my performance =)) I also watched and RECORDED your interview with Mr. Cito Beltran in ANC, where you showed your speech on air. I have also watched you co-host Mr. Beltran's show :) Remember the Phil Star issue 2 years ago? where tehy interviewed you and asked you about the contest in London (there's a picture of you wearing white spags and blue skirt), i cut it out, and up to now it's still on my study table. I also have the Meg issue, the one they featured you as an achiever! :)

I've joined several extemporaneous speaking contest (in Filipino) and everytime I walk my way into that center stage, jitters would usually tickle me from my foot. But then I have always thought of you, i usually ask myself, how did ms. evangelista do it? I remember you saying (in Straight Talk) that when speaking, you usually look into the audience in an "M" style, or just look at them as if you're talking to them one by one. Putting that to mind Ms Pat(and of course, imitating you), I won first place in our Dagliang Talumpatian Inter section, and won third place in inter school.

I admire you alot, your writings particularly. Everytime I read your column, there's always a feeling of amazement! hehehe and oh, you're one of the reasons why I took up Com Arts hehehe...So Ms. Pat, continue all your good deeds, continue inspiring me, and inspiring a whole lot of teenagers out there!

again, happy happy birthday! God Bless you on all your endeavors!!! Take Care always!!!

your "fan" :)
jacqueline d. uy

jill's shining moment!

i forgot to post jill's shining moment yesterday. though she didn't have a solo number, she still grabbed the limelight! how did she do it? simple. tube+skirt+bandana... i didn't expect that she would wear that outfit. she looked like an angel in that superb white dress :) jillie we're so proud of you!!! heeheehee... next time, be sure may solo ka!!! and and and! next time stay in the middle part of the stage, i had a hard time taking pics of you kasi ang dilim! ok lang.. maganda ka pa rin kahit madilim! hahaha! too bad benji (benji paras! hahaha) was busy yesterday may shooting kasi siya... pero the original 'benji', walang pambili ng plane ticket para pumunta ng Pilipinas, pautangin mo raw siya! hahahaha

happy birthday to my F!

first.. let me thank my blockmates for the overwhelming compliments a while ago :) heehee

i ate a mini-lunch at the plaridel office during my 8:30am- break. i had adobo rice, which ate tina and i shared :)

after rels, "the gang" heehee headed to animo! jaja and i had mango shake, fishball, and mojos, lau had sisig, sara and jill had grilled chicken and beef... love hanging out with the gang :)

after crithin, i hurried to yellow cab to meet up with monnette and tipay...
she ordered meat lover's pizza and spaghetti... we didn't finish the whole pizza and spag so we took it home haha! too bad fonica was not able to go...

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happy happy birthday f!!!

thanks for every single thing!!! i miss you alot!!! alot!!!

sana we would see each other more often :)

blooming ka day!!! heeheehee

basta words aren't enough to express my gratitude on all the things and times that you've shared with me...

i lav yah f... :)

F'S FOREVER...